Love?

"Are you stupid? I told you to put it over there. You idiot."
"I'm sorry Sasuke, just give me one moment, I just need to flip this, then I will move it." What was he asking me to move? His chunin vest. He had just come home from talking to Grandma Hokage about his last mission. I looked away from dinner to see him walking to me. I felt a twinge of fear. He didn't look happy, but then again when did he ever look happy?
"Naruto didn't I tell you to do something?"
"Yes but what about dinner. I know you don't want your food burned."
"Your right, but I also want my stuff put up. So why don't you do this, quickly go put my stuff up then quickly come back and finish dinner. How hard would that be?"
"It wouldn't be. I'll be right back." He just nodded. I went over and grabbed his stuff. Now you see since Sasuke had come back to Konoha he has been like this. He is never happy and he seems like he is always mad at me. But trust me when I say that how he is right now is not the worst he can be. He can get worse. I shudder when I think about what he can be like. But no matter how bad he can get I still stay with him. "Naruto! How long does it take you to put something up?" I herd him yell.
"I'm coming." I quickly finish putting his stuff up and go to finish dinner. When dinner was done cooking I quickly set the table. It was a routine for me. Ever since he came back from Orochimaru he makes me do everything he wants. Yeah you heard me he makes me do his stuff for him. "Naruto, what the hell is this?" 'Crap I knew I should have gone out to pick something up.'
"It's dinner Sasuke."
"No its not, this can not be my dinner Naruto. This looks like something Akamaru would eat. Are you trying to treat me like a dog?"
"N-no Sasuke. I c-can always go out and g-get something." Yup I was stuttering, like I said I am afraid of him, but I love him.
"Like hell you will. Come here Naruto." I walk over. "Now get on your hands and knees." I did as I was told. I could tell this wasn't going to be good. He put the plate down in front of me. "Now eat it." I started to get up to get a fork and knife. "What are you doing. You wanted to feed me dog food, so now you eat it like a dog." I started to go down to eat it, then I felt it. He kicked me right in the shoulder. I let out a small quite sound of pain. This is how it always is, if I do something wrong I get in trouble for it, and by trouble I mean I get hit or kicked. It's nothing new to me, but it still hurts in more way than one. It seems like I'm going to get lucky this time. I watched him get up and start to walk to the door. I didn't want him to go out, I could make him something else, but at the same time I wanted time to clean up and make sure that every thing was to his liking for when he got back. "Where are you going?"
"Out why does that bother you?"
"No I was just wondering," I look at him, "I'm sorry." I add quickly. He just looked at me for a while. I think he was trying to figure out what he was going to do. I know he was deciding if he was going to take me, so I decided to make that decision for him. "I'll just stay here, I need to clean up."
"I suppose you should. If your good while I'm gone, I might just get something for you to eat."
"That would be nice."
"I bet it would." He said as he walked out the door. I watched him leave, I let out a sigh of relief. I love him I really do, and I know that I would never leave him, But every once in a while I just want some time to think. I still remember what it was like when he came back a few months ago.

~Flashback a few months ago~

I woke up to someone banging at my door. I tried to remember if I had left it unlocked last night, I did. "It's open!" I yell. I herd the door open but I don't bother to get up and see who it is, I had just gotten back from a mission last night and I was still very tired.
"Naruto you idiot, get up. Lady Hokage said that there is something that we need to see, she said that if we don't get there in a few minutes she is going to get rid of it."
"Why should I care what she's got?" In truth all I wanted to do was go back to sleep, I know it doesn't sound like me. But I got in at like three this morning.
"Naruto, get your lazy ass out of bed." She said as she grabbed my arm and yanked me out of bed. Of all the mornings that this could happen it would be the morning that I would be in a really bad mood and still very tired, but hey I'm up now so I might as well go see what Grandma wants.
Sakura waited in my living room while I went and changed in to my normal clothes. When I was done we left to go see Grandma Hokage. It didn't take us long to get there, when we did we were met out side by Iruka-sensei. "Naruto, Sakura, when we get inside please try to control your selves. And remember that what ever Lady Hokage says or does it is what she thinks is best."
"Yeah, yeah. Ok can we just see what she has got for us now." I just wanted  to get this over with, I didn't think that this was going to be some big thing. Iruka looked a little annoyed by my response, but hey what did he expect me to say, 'Yay! A surprise, oh I love surprises,' yeah that is never going to happen. We started to make our way in and up to her office. We saw that Kakashi-sensei was standing out side the door.
"Kakashi, did you already go in?" Iruka asked.
"Yeah, look you two, just try to keep your selves under control."
"Yeah, yeah. Just let us in." With that Kakashi moved out of the way. When I walked in I couldn't believe what I was seeing. There he was. "Sasuke! What are you doing here? Is it really you?" I couldn't control my self. It was him, I could tell that it was really him.
"Relax, loser. I'll answer all your questions later. First, could you please tell the Hokage that I deserve a second chance?"
"Now look you I offered you parole, that is the best that I'm going to give you. The worst would be 10 years in prison." I looked at Sasuke like he was crazy, why wouldn't he take the deal? It was a good deal, even I could tell that.
"Sasuke, I think you should take the deal. Maybe over time you will gain back the trust of the people here, and then you will can be taken off parole." He looked like he was actually taking what I said in to consideration.
"Fine, I'll take the deal. Where do you want me to live, I know that you will want someone to watch over me."
"Naruto how about you? Will you let Sasuke come and live with you?"
"What are you kidding of course I will." I saw Sasuke look like this is exactly what he wanted.
By the end of the day Sasuke had moved in, and some how the relationship that we had before seemed to pick up.

~ End of the flashback. ~

Those were happy times, back when our relationship started he never hit me. We were happy, at least I thought that we were. About two months after he got back that is when he started to hit me and degrade me. But through it all he still says that he loves me, and I still believe him. Like I've said a lot I love him too. I just don't want him to leave again. I don't know if I could stand that again.
I start to pick up the food. I feel like crying. I had worked so hard on dinner, only to have him tell me that its dog food. I could feel it, I started to cry. All my friends ask if our relationship is good, and I always say yes. I mean what else can I say, nothing right? I finished picking up the food and the dishes I think about what it was like when we were only 12, it was a lot easer than it is now. Then we would argue in public, make love in privet. But now that every one knows it seems like its reversed, he beats me in privet and loves me in public. But wishing and reminiscing is never going to get this kitchen clean.
About thirty minutes after he left I was done, not only had I cleaned the kitchen but the whole apartment also. I could feel my hunger start to set in. My stomach was starting to hurt, but if I ate and he would bring something home for me I wouldn't be hungry then he would get mad. 'So I guess I'll just wait.' I looked around for something to do. There was nothing. I had already watered my plants, something Sasuke has let me keep, he said it brings some color to this very plain and almost boring apartment. I did all the cleaning that had needed to be done for the day, I would take a shower before I go to bed, and all the dishes were done. I finally settled on reading, yup reading, there was nothing else to do. We didn't have a TV, he had gotten mad and had accidentally hit it, and we have yet to replace it. And I could not go out, at least not with out him, or his consent. I tried that once, he was pissed; I'll leave what happened up to your imagination.
Another fifteen minutes later I herd him trying to get his key for the door out of his pocket. I quickly get up and open the door for him. Not because I was supposed to but because I wanted to. He looked up to see me standing there. I decided to talk first. "It sounded like you needed some help. Is there anything I can do for you?"
"Yeah, take this and put it on the counter, then warm this up, it's for you, it might have gotten cold on the way here. And thanks for the door." I just nodded and went to go do as I was told. See he isn't always like he was earlier, it's these moments that I stay for. It reminds me what he used to be like. He used to be really nice, I don't know what happened in between then and now, but I am holding on to the hope that he will change, that he will see that what he's doing is wrong. But it's only a little hope.
I herd him go in to the living room and sit down on the couch. "Naruto when you get done in there why don't you come and eat in here with me." I felt so happy when he said that.
"Alright." I quickly warm up my food and go and sit in there, I didn't want him to change his mind. When I sit down he scoots closer to me and wraps his arms around me. I don't fully understand what he was doing but I felt that this was going to lead to something painful. But I go along with it any way. I mean why wouldn't I? I love him.
Later, after I get done eating and I get done putting up the other food he brought home, we are just sitting on the couch, he was reading and I was resting with my head in his lap. It was peaceful. I watch as he closes his book and put it down. "Naruto, I think its time for bed." He said. I felt a small twinge of fear go though me. "Relax Naruto, don't you trust me?"
"Yeah, why wouldn't I Sasuke?"
"Well I don't know, that is why I asked if you trusted me." And with that conversation over we got up to go to bed. I was hopping that bed was all he was going to want tonight. Sometimes he will want sex, now you would think sex it enjoyable, but not for me, at first yes, but now it just hurts. He is only out for him self during sex.
Oh, for some reason that reminds me, your probably wondering why the nine tails doesn't come out when he is hitting me. Well that is because I'm working really hard on not letting him come out. I know it sounds stupid, but I don't want to hurt him.
After a quick shower I go to get in bed. When I get out there I see that he is already asleep. I try to get in to bed without waking him. I don't want to think what he would be like if I woke him up. I've never woke him up before, so it would be a new experience. I quietly lift up the blankets and start to slip in. "Naruto, what the hell are you doing?" 'Shit, he woke up.'
"Um, well I was trying to get in bed with out waking you up. I'm really sorry, you should go back to sleep."
"Why are you lying to me? I know you were trying to sneak out."
"No I wasn't." After I said that I realized that I said that a little too defectively. I look at him and realize what my little comment has done. He was beyond pissed. I run, what else can I do? I herd him get up and chase me. He was getting closer. When I get to the door I see that it is locked, I quickly make a dash for the window. He caught me on my dash across the room, before I knew it he was on top of me just hitting me. I felt my head get spilt open. "Sasuke, stop please! I didn't mean it, really please stop." I was crying by this time, it really did hurt this time. He was hitting me as hard as he could. I felt my lip split open. I couldn't take it any more; I pushed him off of me and began to run again. I was almost to the window when he grabbed my ankle. I fell. He climbed up my body and began to hit me again.
"You think you are going to get away? You think you are going to leave me, I will never let you leave me!" He was yelling at me by now. I felt the strength leaving my body, I couldn't fight any more. I think it was caused by the blood loss, I don't know. All I know is that he just continued to hit me. I was begging him to stop. Finally he began to slow down with his hits, but by that time I was so close to passing out that I didn't really care. He has never got this upset before. I felt myself blacking out.
When I woke up a few days later I found my self to be in the hospital. I looked around, Sasuke was no where to be found. I was upset; I was hoping that he would be there, even though he was the one that put me in here. It felt like someone had me over the head with a brick, or rammed me in to a tree, either one works. I just laid there until someone came in to check on me. "Where is Sasuke?"
"Lady Hokage said that he wasn't allowed in here."
"Why? I want to see him. Please let me see him."
"She said that she thinks that he is abusing you. And until she can hear that he isn't then he is not allowed in here."
"But-." She cut me off.
"No! And that is final." She kind of scared me so I kept my mouth shut. I watched her leave and come back a few minutes later with a tray of food. And for some unknown reason she put the food out of my reach. After she left again I tried to get up to get the food, but I just couldn't. At one point I had gotten up enough to get my legs off, but I got too dizzy, so I had to lie back down. I must have lied there for 10 minutes before the door opened. I was shocked to see who it was.
"Sasuke!"
"Shut up idiot! I'm not supposed to be here, remember?"
"Oh yeah. But what are you doing here? I thought you would have left."
"Why would I have left?"
"Well after last night, I just thought that you wouldn't want me any more."
"Let's let last night go, alright?"
"Yeah, let's do that."
"Why aren't you eating?"
"Because I can't get up to get it. I get to dizzy." I watched him go over and grab my food. I thought that he was going to eat it in front of me, but instead we walked over and sat on the side of my bed and started to feed me. I was so happy. But it was short lived, the door to my room flew open and grandma walked in.
"What the hell are you doing in here? I told you to stay away from him."
"Calm down, I was just feeding him his food. He couldn't get up to get it so I got it for him. Is there something wrong with that?"
"Well no."
"Grandma, I want him in here."
"But look at you; look at what he has done to you."
"I started it."
"Naruto what he is doing to you is wrong. Him hitting you is not right. He doesn't love you."
"He doesn't hit me, where did you get that from. We get in to one fight and every one thinks that you're being abused!"
"So it really was just a fight?"
"Yes it really was just a fight, it happens all the time. Grant it they are not always this bad but still, people fight."
"Alright, but we will be keeping an eye on the situation."
"Fine." Was all Sasuke said as grandma Hokage walked out. When she was gone Sasuke turned and looked at me. "Why did you lie?" 'So he does know what he is doing.'
"Because I love you and I will stay with you no matter what."
"Good boy." It was right then that I knew that he might never change, in fact I was sure that he would never change. But yet I am going to stay with him hi matter what. I love him and I always will, even if it kills me.